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Title: I won't cry
Author: Prussiluskan
Rating: PG
Pairing: former Jai/Thom
Summary: It's never fun to watch your former lover with someone new...
Disclaimer: "This story is a work of fiction, and does not reflect real lives or relationships."
A/N: This is a songfic, my very first... The song is sung by Elin Lanto and written by Lasse Andersson


I won't cry
I'm telling you that I won't cry
And even if I do, it's not because of you
I promise you that I won't cry

Jai stood in the doorway, watching as his former lover kissed another man.

I wonder why happiness
Is so easily lost
All my dreams and expectations
Are turned into dust

They'd started dating just a couple of weeks after they'd started working together. And while Jai had had doubts about it at first, he became more and more sure of their relationship. He even allowed himself to start believing that they'd had a future together, and before he knew it, he'd fallen in love.

I won't cry
I'm telling you that I won't cry
And even if I do, it's not because of you
I promise you that I won't cry

He watched with sad eyes as the other man said something that caused his former lover to laugh.

So hurt and defenseless
I'm left here on my own
I'm so scared that I'll miss you
So afraid of being alone

But now, he'd been dumped. For a man that was almost twice Jai's age. And an ugly man at that. He couldn't recall how he'd been dumped. But he knew why. He didn't have the "right" look. He was just a pretty face, and not much more. But what had hurt most, was that he hadn't even been given the chance to prove himself.

I won't cry
I'm telling you that I won't cry
And even if I do, it's not because of you
I promise you that I won't cry

He'd always remember the good times they'd had, and they might even be friends someday. But right now it hurt to much to even consider being near him.

You can't hurt me anymore
I wipe the tears from my eyes
This is over now forever
And it's time to say goodbye

Taking one last look at the man he loved, Jai turned around and walked out.

I won't cry
I'm telling you that I won't cry
And even if I do, it's not because of you
I promise you that I won't cry

Walking home to the one person he could trust. When he finally stepped through the door he was met with comforting arms and the words "he is blind to not want you, and if he can't see it he's not worth you". And while this person had a boyfriend of his own, Jai felt so much better in knowing that sometimes love is just enough.

I won't cry
I'm telling you that I won't cry
And even if I do, it's not because of you
I promise you that I won't cry
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